Since I tend to post on Facebook so much about my new lifestyle change (and subsequent weight loss from it), I figured a blog may be in order so that I can go a little more in depth. So here goes...!
Today, as I was finishing the dishes, starting the laundry, picking up the bathroom, and hanging various pictures up in my daughter's room, it hit me. I feel much more like a "stay at home mom" now, rather than an "unemployed hotel employee". The energy that eating better and drinking water (no soda or sweet tea for 12 days!) has given me makes me feel much more alive around my house.
This, in turn, makes me feel less guilty too. You see, when I lost my job nearly 2 years ago to the day, I almost instantly felt guilt; guilt that has only gotten worse since then. I've thought about the burden I have put on my husband to be the "bread winner". I've thought about the perception that my choice not to go back to work may be considereed lazy. I think there is no way around feeling a little guilty about it all. And as my last unemployment check makes its way to my house next week, I'm actually starting to feel that guilt lifted a little bit, strangely enough. And I give all the credit to this new way of living.
In future posts, I'll talk about my addiction to fast food (and why I truly feel it is/has been an addiction), my lack of cooking skills that somehow get me through the day now, and all the other fun things that come from making this huge change in my life and the lives of my family. My weigh in day is Monday, so look for a post about those results then! I've been very encouraged by all the kind words I've received on Facebook and beyond. They make my heart swell. I hope my words can do the same for some of you!
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